separation...

haai...whats the point of forcing yourself when the other person doesnt want you right?...im going to let go of him na....hindi ko na kaya...masyado na ko nasasaktan na nakikita ko siya na nahihirapan...alam ko na parang forced lang siya thats why kinakausap pa niya ko...so im letting go...fuck!!i hate this!!i hate what is happening and I HATE MYSELF!!!!when did i start becoming like a bitch!!shit!!!!and when did i start hating myself?!?!thats the lowest..argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i also hate him!!why didnt he fight for me?!?!he said he LOVE me...what the fuck!!!!is that how a person shows his love?!?!?!dammit!!!!!!!!!!!!why am i thinking like this?!?!i know that its myfault that everything became so fucked up..but argh!!!!!ohmygod...suko na ko...ayoko na...shit...i miss him so much....i dont want to lose him....godhelpme....argh!!!!!i love my bf...i really love him...but..i dont know...is it possible to love two person at the same time?...or am i just being delusional with one of them....am i in love or just infatuated?...someone asked me if i just said yes because i dont want to get hurt again...maybe he's right...but that doesn't change anything...i still have a boyfriend...yet i want the other one...fuck!...im so stupid!!!...shit...ohmygod...why did i let him go?...i dont want to lose him....amf...why didn't you fight for me?!?!!!!!!!!!why...?...i want you...damn you...


i am in love......

i really love you...

fuck.