sickness

less than a month ago my dad was confined because of his diabetes problem that caused organ failures.

today my mom is confined because of a heart attack that nearly killed her.

both times i was about to go to school.

both times i was alone, without anyone to tell me if the message that i received is just a joke or for real.

both times i have to travel on my own, waiting in different hospitals without seeing both of them yet.

wtf is happening. is this a sign na talagang tumatanda na sila and i should be ready to be on my own?

im scared. i dont like this. god please keep them safe.please help us recover.

you. i texted you, you didnt reply. i shouldnt have tried to text you. i needed you kanina, but you were gone. i know im not your responsibility anymore. i understand. i just want to blame someone about what happened kanina...hay. i guess its just stress talking. dont stop reading this and writing on your own.please. i feel like this is the only connection that i have with you...dont destroy this connection please...

hi mon. i know you dont know this blog. i know you will never ever read this. but still i want to say thank you.again. for being with me.late maybe, but you do have your responsibilities with your family.i understand that. but seriously, THANK YOU. i know i hurt you last saturday :( i didnt mean any of it. and i regret everything that i told you. well most of it.the drunken ramblings that i did. but anyway, you're still here. you were with me.you guard me even if you dont have to.and i am grateful for that. :) writing this makes me feel better even if i know you wont know any of it. :) dont worry kuya spag, ill make it up to you some how :)