team building

IT WAS A SUCCESS!!!

At last. natapos na ang project ko na inabot ng 2 months to prepare. and it was a huge success!!! i feel so GOOOD. kahit na pagod at walang tulog. okay, start sa kwento, but i will start it sa mga pinaggagawa ko nung week na toh.


i can say that this is a WHATTHEFUCKAMIDOINGWITHMYLIFEWEEK. wow. haha

midterms are over.sadly, i didnt perform that well. hay.

anyway,

WED- stayed at Niqi's condo until around 12 with the guys. niqi's condo is happiness. i love it there :)

THURS- for somereason i ended up in SUKAT at around 10 pm O_O i know i know, first is we had a mock contest for the euro event that we will host this coming week. so there we stayed until past 9pm. then guill suddenly invited us (danya and i) to go to the south to accompany the german exchange student. payag naman kami ni danya.shet. ayun. nakatira kami sa NORTH at bigla kaming napunta sa SOUTH na naka COMMUTE ng mga 10 ng gabi.wow. mga 1am na din ako naka uwi nun ah HAHA. but it was fun.adventure

FRI- FUCKED UP LRT.tangina yan. had a weird-awesome moment with danya there. then we had a slumber party in niqi's condo. CHATROULETTE!!! langya yang mga lalaking yan,HAHA. kinabit nila ung laptop sa TV tas nag chat roulette. its this chat site na ang damin..err..yeah. nakakatuwa is that habang kaming girls ay napapatili sa kadirian, yung mga guys nag eenjoy makakita ng things ng guys. how fucked up is that? ahahaha. so nomnomnom. things happened. blah. shet.walang tulog and 7am alis ng bus the next day.hahaha

SAT- ETO NA. streesssssss. hahahaha.late nanakaalis. ohyeah. i feel proud that ako ang project head nito.BWAHAHAHA. so there, umalis kami ng csb, kung hindi ko pa tinanong ung driver di pa magsasabi na wala siyang map :| tapos naligaw kami, napunta kami sa may fish port, nagalit ang mga mangingisda ng laguna bay kasi WTF BAKIT MERONG MALAKING BUS DITO EH KAHIT NGA MGA TRICYCLE AT JEEP NA SISIKIPAN DITO BLAH.hahahaha. tapos ayun, got stuck there, biglang yes, naka alis din doon at balik highway na. then nung nasa kanto na ng resort BOOM! sumabit ang bus,NABASAG ANG BINTANA. buti nalang maliliksi ang CDA at naka iwas sa pagbasag ng salamin. wow, wala pa nga sa resort kung ano ano na nang yari sa amin, so there, sumakay nalang ng jeep. then the teambuilding begins.

WALANG TULUGAN. DAW ( but nakitulog kami sa room ng guys. mas maganda TV nila eh hahah)

masayang mang trip at mang pagod ng mga participants. bwahahahaha. yun nlang sasabihin ko dito

SUN- uwi na. pagod na lahat pero masaya :) NGUNIT nag adventure pa ulit kami ni danya at linibot at RIzal. langyang bus kasi na yan eh, iba ang dinaanan.

hay sobrang pagod. ohyeah, pinagalitan ako ni niqi. HAHA sabi ng sabi

"ang panginoon ginawa ang lalake para sa babae at ang babae sa lalake, hindi sa babae, meron kang boobs at walang ayun, ano gagawin mo sa babae mag *make the hand gestures* "

LANGYA =))))) nakaka asar but yeah tama.but still ugh HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH blah

and shit. he kissed me. ang weird ng na feel ko. parang may mali eh. ewan. i thought i want him, but di eh, may mali,


bahala na


so now. naka tulog na ko and everything, but pagod pa din.

:)

grabe ah

YOU.

1.i never told you na nasasakal ako.
2.it would have worked IF you did not give up on me.
3.STOP spreading lies.please.


i don't want to relieve those memories again. please. so if bored kayo and wala kayo mapag usapan, pwede wag naman yun ang pag usapan? but if yun lang talaga ang pwede niyong pag usapan, pwede yung totoo naman yung ikalat mo, at wag lies?

thank you.

jinx

i screw up.fuck.

YOU

BEAAAAR HUUUUUG >:D<

*bite*

:)

bwahahahaha >:))

i should really stop assuming. ako lang nasasaktan eh. :>

THEY'RE NOT TOGETHER. IT WAS JUST A PRANK CAUSED BY BITTERNESS.bwahahahha

i.am.so.so.soooooo.HAPPY :))


yes, i told you ill stop na.so last night was the last one na. :)


ohyeah, lastnight was seriously....crazy :|

dapat pa pinigilan ko sila? nah. they're old enough to know what they're doing. bahala na sila sa buhay nila :)


waaaaaah. go online naaa.ang bagal.HAHA dami ko kwento >:D ahihihi

i miss you :">

ayun

well, that's that. i knew that this will happen, but yeah, watever nalang.

YOU pathetic friend. i feel you. HAHAHA. gago naman kasi eh.

i hope it wont be like this...

Dear Ex,

I know you’ll never read this but I would like to vent out my emotions and feelings. I have to release it before it eats me alive.
It took me a year to get over you, you know. Yes, a year. It was a crazy year. Yeah I would like new people, but you were still there in my heart. Corny, but true. Memories, images, and feelings would sometimes creep back to be occasionally. It still does…even now. When I found out you moved on, moved on to other girls, I hurt and cried. Don’t blame me! I’m a girl; a fragile, emotional wreck of a teenage soul. And you were my first.. Neve before in my life have I ever fallen in love with someone. When we dated, that was the first time I knew what it was like to be in love. Instead of just hearing about it, or watching it, it was actualy happening to me! And the feeling of being in love…it’s crazy. It was like my universe revolved around you…us.

It’s true when they say that the first cut is the deepest. It’s been 2 years now? I still haven’t found a new boyfriend yet you’ve had a few after me. You know how that makes me feel? WEAK. Weak, stupid and idiotic. LIke I’m the weak one out of the 2 of us. Sometimes I even think that you really didn’t love me.. Sometimes I think that I loved you more. And it hurts. Did you feel what I felt? Did you miss me after we broke up? Did you miss our moments together? Was I still in your heart right after we broke up? Or was I just ’another girl’ in your life? These are the questions that float through my mind. Sometimes I don’t even think you treasured what happened to us. Was that just anther small part in your teenage phase? I try, oh I try so hard to just get rid of the tiny feelings I have for you right now. I do! I really do. But I think that those feelings will always be engrained in me. That what happened to us will always be a part of me. But I bet you these will change when I find another… When I think of seeing you again, half of me just wants to punch you real hard, but the other half just wants to make out with you again. I laugh, and ask myself why I have such…dislike for you. I think it’s just me though. Me being selfish & self-centered. And because of my jealousy. Yeah.

But it makes me sad how, after everything we’ve been through, we end up like this. No longer friends. And it just seems so friggin awkward for me when I talk to you. I hate what relationships can do to friendships. I guess it’s not the same anymore. I don’t think it will ever be. We’ve both just become strangers to each other. But I do hope you’re happy. Happy with your life, happily in love with her. Because when you love someone, you want what’s best for them right? Even though it doesn’t involve you.. And I am happy for you. Really. We may not be friends right now, but you’ll always be that someone I fell in love with for the first time. ‘First love’, as they call it. And I hope you remember me too. That someday, somehow, we will be friends again. Because I don’t want us to become aliens to each other. Aliens after everything we had. And thank you. For the love you gave me. And now that I let all this out… I think I may be over you. Thank God for that.

Love you always,

Your Ex
by mycah

sickness

less than a month ago my dad was confined because of his diabetes problem that caused organ failures.

today my mom is confined because of a heart attack that nearly killed her.

both times i was about to go to school.

both times i was alone, without anyone to tell me if the message that i received is just a joke or for real.

both times i have to travel on my own, waiting in different hospitals without seeing both of them yet.

wtf is happening. is this a sign na talagang tumatanda na sila and i should be ready to be on my own?

im scared. i dont like this. god please keep them safe.please help us recover.

you. i texted you, you didnt reply. i shouldnt have tried to text you. i needed you kanina, but you were gone. i know im not your responsibility anymore. i understand. i just want to blame someone about what happened kanina...hay. i guess its just stress talking. dont stop reading this and writing on your own.please. i feel like this is the only connection that i have with you...dont destroy this connection please...

hi mon. i know you dont know this blog. i know you will never ever read this. but still i want to say thank you.again. for being with me.late maybe, but you do have your responsibilities with your family.i understand that. but seriously, THANK YOU. i know i hurt you last saturday :( i didnt mean any of it. and i regret everything that i told you. well most of it.the drunken ramblings that i did. but anyway, you're still here. you were with me.you guard me even if you dont have to.and i am grateful for that. :) writing this makes me feel better even if i know you wont know any of it. :) dont worry kuya spag, ill make it up to you some how :)

brat love

"i love you geged!! always remember that!! soo...pag naging pathetic ka over someone else.. dont you think youre hurting my pride?"

yes. you're right. move on.i am being a brat. tama ka, pagayaw ko mag move on, at yung isa ay ayaw na, then i am being a brat about love. pag napunta na sa point na i aolways feel like im the one being hurt, na yung isa hindi naman, then yes, i am a brat.

you promised me that you'll always be here :) thank you. i know we just met but...yeah. watever.alam mo na yun :)

its your BIG DAY today, later. when you walk on the stage and get that piece of paper, i dont know. im scared to think about anything. hay.

i love you too. i know, i told you na.haha! but seriously, i mean it :)

acceptance,pathetic,spilled milk yeah, i will always remember those words :)

go and be a cute panda tom hun *hug*