new year

happy or sad?

2009 was a bad year. even though madami ako nakilala.

sabi niya after new year madami nang bawal. shit. i know its right.but still :|

bahala na.

ohyeah. i almost told him that

ohshit

babalik na bestfriend niya and i'm scared kung ano mangyayari. nung wala siya dito, yung time na nasa ibang country siya, i feel secured.wala siya dito eh. but now he told me uuwi na ulit si bestfriend and i feel threatened na baka in love pa rin siya dun and magiging sila na even if he told me na she's like a sister for him. i wish she would nt come back here. i dont like this feeling.

there's this new guy. and he keeps me distracted from thinking about the past. i think i really like him, although not like the other one who i really love. this one is like a HS crush,haha. i keep thinking about him.imagining things,what ifs. i think he likes me also, though not sure.or umaasa lang ako? hahaha. bastaaaaa. bumabalik nanaman ung kilig feeling na matagal ko na hindi na raramdam. :) i hope everything will be better :)

even if nasasaktan ako.and panandalian lang yung happy feeling na nararamdaman ko for the other one, gustong gusto ko pa rin siya nakikita.its torture. problem is, ako na lang ang may gusto sa ganun. nag move on na siya eh.

i'm excited for next week. classes will resume meaning i will get t see him.

you made my day last friday :>

i really should have removed it.tsss.sayang HAHAHA landi kidding =)))))

scared

im scared.he's over me.i cant feel anything from him.dont say goodbye.please.i still love you. youre still my kalabaw.

"kalabaw will always love baboy.you promised me."

its over

i still cant believe that we're over...its a surprise..i never expeced it..and i dont understand why it happened...we were so happy...i really tried my best to make this one work...i gave everything i can for you..yet its not enough. i short of begged you to be with me again...yet its not enough..i need an explanation why you did this to me..you said you love me..but you left me..you said you'll never leave me..but you did...i need you so much...i love you...you're the one who push me to do better..and now i dont have you anymore...i wanted so much for us to be legal yet you dont want that..you gave me every excuse that you can think of so that i would not get to meet your family..i should have seen the sign...but then you told me that you'll bring me to your place so that i will get to meet you family..you never did.you brought your friends there but you didnt bring me along...i love you so much...i dont know if i can trust you again...i expected so much from you even though you never did actually did anything for me.almost.i want you back.thats stupid.i know.ewan ko na kung ano mangyayari.im not even sure if i can face you again after this.

omg

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