Wednesday, February 27, 2008

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i dont want him to leave me....please..dont...:(

mood:depressed

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

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ohmyfreakinggosh.tapos na legacy.meaning we seniors had finally left our legacy to our school.shit college..im so not ready..then in a few week it will be my 18th.ugh..not excited for that day.not because i dont want to be an adult( hey im a teen, im excited to go to wherever i want) but its because usually, when a girl turns 18 she would usually have a debut or a party(basta something different from her other birthdays).sadly for me nada party.ugh.for a very long time it has been kind of a ritual that whenever its my birthday i will have a big blowout or a party for my friends.but for this year i wont be celebrating.wow.different nga sa iba kong birthday.ill just study for the exams i guess..another shitty reason why i dont want to have my birthday is because i have a huge feeling that i wont be seeing him.ugh.hai...anyway..bahala na..i just wish hindi na mag bday ko.or better yet matapos na agad yung bday ko :












anyway..shit.i love this picture!!i call that manika.weh.haha.wala lang. :P










another thing na napansin ko is why is that pag tumatanda ako mas nagiging mukang bata ako?labooo...hahaha :))












homosexuals..:(

i got this from my friend. It's about homosexuals and their stand in the society.

I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had.
I wish they could adopt me.I am not one of the lucky ones.
I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
I am the man who fears that I will never be able to be myself, to be free of this secret because I won’t risk loosing my family and friends.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don’t believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends im a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.
I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to “teach me a lesson”
—IF YOU BELIEVE THAT HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG … REPOST THIS ON YOUR BLOG

Sunday, February 17, 2008

our "story"


cow heres our story na :)


How a cow and a pig came to be

the past

it started on a review class wherein the enchanting pig attended to concentrate on her studies. so there the beautiful pig sat next to a smoking hot american dog.(wow its really hot in there!)haha. then suddenly a huge "kalbo" cow came barging in throught the doors!with him came all hells.its daaymn for the pig. then as usual he falls for the beauty of the pig and did everything he can so as to attract the pig. he even bought something from the 11/seven store just so he can say hi to her.(aww....admit it j.its true.haha) so there they were eating and taking classes together.added to that is that the cow actually took the seat of the smoking hot american bulldog just to be closer to the cutie pig!(aww...so sweet right?haha)


so blah blah blah.then whenever they go out the cow always drop something from his bag.shet.haha. so some of the things they did was eat in a pizza place with their classmates but humiwalay yung dalawa to a shorter and smaller table.weird.haha.then one of the things that gorgious pig (g.pig) remembers was when they took their mock exam and the kalbo cow(k.cow) make siksik to this small table then held her hand.(aww...:) ) another was when he gave her a pink beaded flower necklace which she loves with a band playing as a background music(cheese is love)haha. panira lang was when he needed to na kasi nandun na yung mom niya.hai...what a way of ruining the moment.:(


anyhoo...aun so that was the last day for the pig. but still they went out to watch a movie. there he introduce her to this hottie chicken and she fell for that chicken.for awhile. then cow became selos (so cute when he's like that.haha). there was that time that she had an opportunity to sit beside the hottie.sadly the cow blocked her way and she got stuck beside him.(kapal pa,sumandal pa siya talaga!tsk,) haha.


who would have thought that being a gago can be such a turn on?JOKE.can be so attractive i mean.haha


so there they were always talking to eachother but still.around this time they are still JUST FRIENDS.understood?


suddenly as they say: lalabas din ang iyong nakaraan. so there. a chinito bull from her pass came back and made her tripped into love with him. so for months they went out happily? and for month the cow and the pig fought with eachother.yet the pig still cant think of not having the cow around.she almost beg him.dammit.she NEVER begs.tae!!so there.there relationship that time is bestfriend-enemy relationship. the pig thought that she's happy with the bull. or was she really just making herself think that she's happy para walang pagsisisi?ewaan.


she really misses the old cow..really regreted her descision..hai...


there was also this one time that the cow actually escorted her to the bull during this one event.shet.soooo awkward.haha.


the pig being so confused with everything still went out with the cow...knowing its not right.yet cant help it.it seems that she's more excited whever she talks to the cow that with the bull. her friends says that she made a wrong descision..but what can she do? the choice was made..:(

there was also this owl telling her that the bull is an ass and she and the cow would be a much better pair :))


just before christmas the pig and bull seperated. there was still strain in her relationship with the cow. but still the two are still friends..


NOW


the two are finally together.as a couple. who would have thought that the two will be together after everything that happened? it took NINE FREAKING MONTHS for them..yet the cow stayed..never leaving the pig..


introductions to their own friends were made.and kisses and hugs were exchanged. yet there are still some legalities that needs to be overcome..how can a relationship last without the blessing of the mentors? but that is yet to come..these two creatures are patient beings(kinda) so never lose hope and they will survive every challenges that come to them.i hope.
and now as the pig is typing this she just realized that..OMG...ang tiyaga ni j...shit...

i wont be saying the end for this story since this is just the beginning...:)

some things that the g.pig remembers:

introduction to the friends, hanging out in starbucks, powerbooks,greenmountains

walking around shang and galle

MOVIE TIMES <3 haha

cow almost always falling of a balcony

falling ballpens

his first letter with a toy

him admitting his feelings

punching the ***** of the pig.ouch!dammit!haha

telebabad times..:)

looking up the stars in the mall <3

and so on.. :)


K. cow..if your reading this i want to let you know that i like you better with longger hair.haha.and i soo love you.mwaaah. and pangit ka pa rin.joke.hahaha.huuuug.:)



oh yeah..forgot to mention.the COW linoko yung Pig. not the otherway around.okay??haha

Saturday, February 16, 2008

what happened in the past few days.

sooo...what happened was there is a psycho killer roaming around rizal raping women and cutting off their boobs !! eww...haha

then..J and i are officially....beep. haha.im so happy!:D <3

made a cake for j's bday.sadly nakalimutan ibigay so..aun binigay the cake the next day which is valentines.eww..parang ewan.haha

hai...i really want it to be legal na...i want our relationship to last...and i dont think it will if wala naman blessing yung parents...:'(

its valentines day!and omg. k sent me a message saying
K: "i love you"
me: "uhhh.."
K: "spread the love girl!its loves day!" (shit) :
so ako naman..
me: "ok.love you too!:))"
SHIT SABAW..HAHAHA

today:Saturday

i went out with my friends.but asar they're LATe.like im grounded pa so maaga ako kailangan umuwi.ugh

special thing that happened today is: J!yuck.tuwang tuwa eh.hahaha

he finally introduced me to his friends as his gf!and he to mine as my bf! daaaymn!!so HAPPY!!waaahh!!:D hahahha
im really glad that i got to know his friends. feel ko na tuloy na talagang kami na.hahaha
(i so love you J!!<3)>
then he gave me a stuffed piggies!!!cuties!!hahaa.mwaah!!
and we also watched a movie.the eye.uhh....kinda watched it i mean.hahaha ;)
i really love this day except for the fact that ang wrong timing ng pagka grounded ko.kung kelan J can spend until gabi thats when i need to go home early..hai..anyway. waahh!!he was so so so sweet earlier!!kahit sa harap ng friends niya hindi siya nahihiya na manging affectionate!mwaaah! and omg.i kissed him infront of my friends.daaymn.:D hahaha

thats all.

oh yeah.there's this babble queen going around multiply spreading gossip about our batch. all i have to say about it is: FUKC you!!!GAWIN MO NALang yan after ng graduation.baka lahat tayo hindi maka graduate!grr...

ok.bye. hahaha

Saturday, February 09, 2008

happy :)


i so love and miss this...thing. hahaha mwaaahh!!huuug!!*bite* hahaha